oooooooh wow.  i havent wrote in this thing since january.  sheize.

you know, this past year, being out of school was quite liberating.  i see all these people graduating and stuff, and i know that just about everyone will change.  at least just a little bit.  we all do.  it takes others longer than some, but we all change.

a lot of people pick up bad habbits out in the real world, some lose them.  some find religion, some lose it.  some find jobs, others...lose them.  we find, we lose, we find, we lose.  that's how life goes.  just a cycle.  one person drops something, another will pick it up somewhere else.

what i think would be really cool is a party.  a party for the returning class of '05 to come together and celebrate and tell the tall tales of the real world.  high school is nothing compared to everything else out there.

we should live life a little on the edge.  i was thinking about this sometime today.  i was watching a movie and they were talking about how we are all just being prepared for the future, to better the future, and that's how everyone lives.  that's how we are all trained.  we are taught to be better than people before us, and to make things better for the people following us.  ever thought about just chilling for a minute.  im not talking about going crazy with life, but it's a fact that we all die.  why not try something new, do something insane?  why not party a little bit, why not live a little?  too many people live in their little boxes their whole lives. they never see the light of liberty to choice.  they believe they must do what others expect of them.  i say...fuck that.  do what you want to do.  go crazy every once in awhile.  take your shoes off, sit down, take a shot or have a beer, talk about life.  relax and don't care for a minute.  then that's when i think that you will see what living is all about.

Currently Listening Undertow By Tool Track 2: Prison Sex see related

Voyage at Sea

I wanted to sail

Sail the mighty leagues of the sea

Just my mighty sail, my oars, and me

Blind without guidance

No compass or protractor

Nor can I read the stars

My hope has become lost

Never again do I want to sail

I dream to meet dry land

I want to walk along the beach

Embrace the grainy texture of sand

Though not as smooth as an ocean current

But neither as violent at times

One must learn not all is as it seems

This I learned of my voyage at sea

Currently Listening Emotive By A Perfect Circle TRACK 10: Counting Bodies Like Sheep to the Rythm of the War Drums see related

War Whore

He gives orders, attacks foreign borders

Then has a laugh

Cackling and chuckling he doesn’t do the math

His eyes are big his dreams are real

His mind gears turning with petroleum greased will

He’s finishing what his father started

Paying his dues

But I bet if you would cut him apart

Nothing would ooze

He yells “More, more, more.  Ya want war, war, war.  I’m gonna give ya more, more, more, war, war, war.  I know ya want it, too!”

The mighty elephant lifts its foot

He rides high upon its back

Just a king, and his queen, and his black jack.

His cards are stacked

He rules our west, who knows where next?

He yells “More, more, more.  Ya want war, war, war.  I’m gonna give ya more, more, more, war, war, war.  I know ya want it, too!”

He snarls at the sound of peace

He smiles a smile that hides his yellow razor teeth

Gains his power from the trained minds of the Book

Their box holds them prisoner, five years thus far

Can’t they see who he is, who they are?

Simple minded, power hungry, wanting more

How’d he come to be such a war whore?

Currently Reading The Time Machine By H. g. Wells see related

"Trick or treat-sweet to eat
On Halloween and New Year's Eve
Yankee girls ya just can't beat
But they're the best when they're off their feet

Girls, Girls, Girls
At the Dollhouse in Ft. Lauderdale
Girls, Girls. Girls
Rocking in Atlanta at Tattletails
Girls, Girls, Girls" - Motley Crue; Girls, Girls, Girls.  i figured this was appropriate since it was almost new years...

the holidays, i dont really like them that much (if i ever actually did).  yes, i like the socializing with family and friends, more so because i get along with everyone and enjoy conversing, and the "partying".  what i dislike is the attitudes of many people.  seems like everyone is grouchy, or depressed.  some are just upright assholes.  i feel a lot of stress and pressure around this time of year.  not on myself, but i get the vibe that everyone else has a great deal of pressure and stress in their lives.  it's all okay, life goes on.

my motto "If you aren't in any life threatening danger, or putting anyone else in life threatening danger, do it.  Life will go on and all will be well."  see, nothing is as bad as death...well except torture, but that's a whole different story.

speaking of partying, i cannot wait until this saturday night.  i'm trying to find an awesome party to go to.  if anyone knows of one, give me a call.  or let me know somehow.  i just want to have a great time...and partialy remember it.

have you ever had a hangover on christmas day?  not fun.  especially when you have a 9 year old cousin that bugs you every 5 seconds to play a Harry Potter card game.  or a screaming aunt...or two.

i transfer to the chickamauga store on the 15th.  so all of my friends that come and see me at work, i'm sorry.  but my raise finally went through and such, so i'm happy.

can't wait to get back in school.  it's going to be fun.  i miss friends, making them and hanging out with them.  i just need to get enrolled, and soon.

i tried to edit this thing and it deleted half of my post for some reason.  i hate that.  xanga pisses me off sometimes.  oh well, it's just words.  meaningless words that i write anyways, hoorah.

this post is dying.  so i have to say goodbye.  PEACE.